fatigue

my day ended up so, so slow.... it's 8:30 p.m. and I am in bed, watching Sons, ready got my tiredness to slowly take over me and end this drawn out day. I could not motivate to do anything, but did make it to Gabes dentist appointment. He got "A"s. :) Other than that, and him and I making a few more glow-in-the-dark iron-bead thingies (you know, lay a design on a peg board then iron them into a solid piece), I have been worthless. So this has me taking a look at... well, all of it, you know. Medication, evening schedules, working out, alcohol. If I am to find things for us, meaning Abe and I, to do sober, it seems I am going to have to be the one to find them and then sort of push them, on myself as well. I enjoy a night a week where I just sort of let loose and get buzzed and silly, it saddens me that I may have to lose that just because of the drain it puts on my system, how I feel so so so tired the next day, or if not that then just unable to really focus or feel driven.

All in all I had a great weekend. I'm really excited about these costumes I am making. I'm happy with how my running is coming right along after taking so much time off of it. I'm enjoying church and liked sitting in on last Sunday's chalice circle, hanging more and doing a craft project, getting to know people a little bit more, it was really nice.

This coming weekend is Halloween. There's a karaoke halloween party at a bowling alley Abe knows on Saturday night. I really want to go, we are going, but I have church things on Sunday that I won't miss, so I have to figure out how to be mentally and physically able to do it all. I want it all!!